My Journey Through Life
The biggest reason I started this blog was to use it as an outlet. A place where I can express my feelings and opinions. Where I can share my life experiences. I have spent a majority of my life talking without really saying anything. I’ve held on to my real feelings and emotions for way to long.
Thanks to my wife, and the support of my counselors, I have finally started to speak up for myself.
I was diagnosed with PTSD a few years ago, but I’ve had it since I was 7. I had a rough childhood and I was abused physically and mentally. I spent 23 years thinking there was something wrong with me. Thinking I was broken and unimportant. I never thought I could get married or have children . The truth is I was still battling my inner demons blindly, when my wife came into my life.
She was truly a light, during a dark time in my life. I still felt dirty and insecure, but we fell in love, and that got us through the rough spots. We had our daughter 3 years later, and she has also helped shape me into the man I am today. All of this considered, I still felt like there was something wrong with me.
When I was diagnosed, everything made sense all of a sudden. The flashbacks, panic attacks, nightmares and mood swings all added up. Now don’t get me wrong, I was far from doing well, and I still fight myself daily, but it’s nice to at least understand part of what’s going on internally.
I started homeschooling my daughter and I’ve never been happier. I’ve always loved to teach, and I was a trainer and manager for the last decade, so it made perfect sense for me to do this.
I just wanted to share my story. I hope that this helps or at least inspires anyone who is struggling through life.
I am just a regular guy, but to my daughter I am superman. I found my purpose in life; my family.
My wife told me once “That you don’t have to be rich or famous to be important, you just have to be true to yourself and love the ones around you”.
If you have, or know someone that has PTSD or any other mental health issues, how do you handle it? What methods have you found helpful?