A Family Bond
If you have read any of my other posts, you know that I have anxiety, along with some other mental health issues. If you haven’t, well you know now. What you might not know is that my wife and daughter also suffer from anxiety.
My wife is an amazing women. She’s smart, funny and a very passionate person. A few years ago she was diagnosed with rheumatoid and psoriatic arthritis. These are chronic illnesses that cause her to suffer from severe physical pain — every day.
On top of this she has anxiety and depression. Some days are worse then others, but most days it’s hard for her to even get out of bed. Even so, she still works full time.
To make things harder, my daughter was diagnosed with extreme social anxiety. She eventually got to the point where she was terrified to go anywhere or be with anyone that wasn’t my wife or myself. Some nights she would stay up all night, terrified to go to sleep.
We have worked with doctors and counselors, and we eventually started working out the problem. She now sleeps through the night, and goes to all of her appointments with a smile. School on the other hand was a traumatic experience for her. We decided to withdraw her, and we are now starting our first full year of homeschooling.
Ive stayed home with my daughter since she was a few months old, and I love the quality time we’ve had together. The only problem is, I also worked 9 hours overnight as a manager for the last 5 years. I hardly ever slept and it made my mental health issues worsen. I honestly don’t know how I did it.
Last May I got injured and eventually needed surgery. I broke down mentally and now am back to having daily panic attacks and severe social anxiety. I am trying to work my way back to a place where I can leave my home to work, but I am just not there yet.
I try to look at this as a sign from the universe, that I need to slow down and focus on myself and my family. I never thought I would leave my job, even with ADHD and PTSD, I was somehow great at it. I now know that I can be great at many things as long as I continue down my path of healing.
I am totally blessed to have a family. There are good days and bad days, and while we all have anxiety, we will not be defined by it.
If anything defines my family; it is our unconditional love.
Do you have mental health issues? If so, do you feel that people try to define you by your mental health, instead of the person you are?