So still sick with Covid, but I decided to do a little writing and put on some tunes and that lead to me my project. So, I have been working on this project for the last year, and I use the word project very loosely. It’s actually a playlist, but with a twist. The rules … Continue reading Bi-Polar Blitz
It’s crazy how much we rely on things we have no real understanding of. I know that there are a lot of intelligent people out there who could probably come up with an answer or at least explanations for most things. I also know that there are a lot of spiritual people who also feel … Continue reading Who knows?
Time is a funny thing. It’s such an abstract notion that it’s truly undefinable. We as human beings try to define it by breaking it down into segments, but this is just a tool we use to try and control time. The thing is that time can’t be controlled or rationed out. It’s a force … Continue reading 1 Year Later
Running fast and feeling great. This last month has been crazy and hard, but totally worth it. I’ve been working as much as possible in-between spending time with my family and starting my business. Staying indoors is my thing anyway, and now I have something to focus on. I have a tendency to go overboard … Continue reading Quickest Month Ever
I’ve been having a hard time writing lately, I just feel like I am in survival mode. I know that my PTSD keeps me in fight or flight some days, well most days. Hyper vigilance is amazing when things go sideways, because my body and mind are both just waiting for conflict. The bad part … Continue reading Hyper Vigilante
I’ve been spending the last few weeks spending my time and energy on my family. My wife has a compromised immune system and my daughter has asthma so I’ve been slightly stressed since January. I live in the USA and we’re so unprepared as a country that it’s scary. So we’ve been self quarantined for … Continue reading A Time for Togetherness
Lately I feel like I am not living life. It’s like I am stuck in a film, and I am watching this version of myself on a loop. It’s beyond predictable and redundant, it’s disheartening. I know that I need structure, but I feel like the borg someday; fully assimilated (This is a super nerdy … Continue reading Trapped
I haven’t really had the time to write anything recently (besides some poetry here and there). Even as I write that, I acknowledge that this is only a half-truth. Yes, I have been super busy lately, and I’ve been finding it harder and harder to get out of bed. It seems like a combination of … Continue reading Ups and Downs
Sight Eyes betray my mind. Shadows move where life is not. Fogging my senses. Sound Ears betray my mind. Whispers of insanity. Voices speak half-truths. Touch Mind betrays body. My mental landscape shatters. Shutting systems down.
Trapped in an open box. Plagued by an unseen pox. Stuck in wet cement. Unsure of life’s intent. Broken without a scar. Running, but can’t go far. Drowning in an empty pool. Benevolent but truly cruel. Problematic strife, Leads to a deathlike life.