My name is Jesse, I currently have PTSD, ADHD, GAD, OCD and bouts of depression (I am a living, breathing acronym).
I am writing this blog for two reasons. The first being that I want to share my story with other people who are fighting the same battles I’ve been fighting the last 20 years. The second is that I need an outlet for my emotions and thoughts. My counselor thinks it will be good for me to share this experience, so here I am.
I am an aspiring author and artist. I’ve been writing since I could hold a pencil and sketching just about as long. I am finally in a place in my life where I feel comfortable enough to bare my soul.
I had an abusive childhood and it’s still not easy to share, but I will. I have battled panic attacks, nightmares and addiction since I was 12, now I am 32 and I am sober and I have a better frame of mind. I am married with a daughter, and have been able to homeschool her since last year.
I attribute a lot of my success to my wife, we’ve been married for 9 years and she has helped me become the man I am today. She supports me through every creative venture I’ve taken (having ADHD, there have been a lot). I also thank my 8 year old daughter, she has given me purpose in my life, to raise her in a house that is free from abuse.
The truth is, while my counselor gave me the idea and my wife has helped spark my interest, and my daughter gives me a reason to write, I have to give myself credit.
I have spent my life showing off and acting tough, but feeling like a piece of trash on the inside. I decided to stop treating myself like a loser and to start treating myself like a winner.
You can only change yourself and accomplish tasks if you want to. I hope that I can inspire you to accomplish your goals in life, but you are the only one that can make them happen.