One word fell from your lips. Barbed metal and poison drips. A bullet locked and loaded. A life destroyed; imploded. Twisting through my cranium, leaving my body cold and numb. Hatred on an endless loop, leaving me alone, outside the group. Laughter rings in my ears. You preyed on my deepest fears. Sitting with my … Continue reading One Word
Tag: depression
Pushing Back
Life has thrown up some hard obstacles my way recently. Between surgeries (for myself and my wife), undiagnosed illnesses and just general anxiety and depression. I am not throwing myself a pity party, I am actually doing quite the opposite. I’ve decided to take this pain and funnel into my one great passion in life; … Continue reading Pushing Back
Late Night Soliloquy
Should I? Pondering the unanswerable, A quandary wrapped in an enigma. Palpable, but not quite tangible. Instant relief equals eternal stigma. Could I? The instrument is in my hand, A tool that can cure or destroy. The gesture is certainly grand, Is this delusion or a ploy? Would I? Can my sanity be bought? Is … Continue reading Late Night Soliloquy
Ups and Downs
I haven’t really had the time to write anything recently (besides some poetry here and there). Even as I write that, I acknowledge that this is only a half-truth. Yes, I have been super busy lately, and I’ve been finding it harder and harder to get out of bed. It seems like a combination of … Continue reading Ups and Downs
Lost Love – 3 Haikus
Desire Staring at the moon. Full of unbridled urges, Craving just one touch. Despair Drink myself to sleep, Haunted by my decisions. Drowning in sorrow. Destruction Sitting at our spot. Unraveling way too fast. A fool on a spool.
Nightly
Awakened by silence... The absence of you lays leaden on my heart. I sit alone in this room tearing myself apart. Nothingness is my only friend, It stays with me until the bitter end. Nightmares are the byway to see you again. I need them, I hate them, God please... Amen Sleepless and anxious I … Continue reading Nightly
Fear
Frightened and alone. Cramped and prone. Under mossy stone. Crawling out my skin. Feeling frail and thin. What was my sin??? I scream, but have no voice. I try to move, but have no choice. His voice I hear, My primal fear. His body near. I awake, sweat blanketing me. Home alone and still not … Continue reading Fear
Ghosts of the Past
I have had nightmares for the past 20+ years. I had a few years where I stopped having nightmares, but that was only because I worked overnights and developed insomnia. Only sleeping for 3 to 4 hrs. everyday. I didn't realize at the time how years of sleep deprivation were affecting my body. I was … Continue reading Ghosts of the Past
Dropping – A Haiku
One slip is a trip, Down the rabbit hole we go. Into the eternal void.
An Instant – Haiku
The world goes sideways. Everything falls to pieces. Left with broken shards.
One Regular Dad 