Eyes shutter. Time traveling backwards. Falling perpetually past myself. Unwanted emotions probe my mind. STOP! An infinite loop, repeating shame. Submerged in icy water. Impossible to escape. Forever frozen.
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Avoiding the Void
Pressure holds me tightly, constricting my very soul. Panic! Know where to hide. Whispers of doubt. Tangled in emotions. Gasping for love, drowning in shame. Running on empty, with no where to run.
One of Those Days
When Giving up Seems Practical I have days where I jump out of bed running with a list in one hand and a sledgehammer in the other. I just feel like I can tackle any problem that comes my way, with ease and poise. I am positive, assertive and happy. Other days I can't move. … Continue reading One of Those Days
Deep Breaths
When Panic Attacks. Sitting at home, reading a book and out of nowhere, it strikes. Anxiety wraps it's claws around my chest and squeezes. A switch hits, and my emotions go out of control. Fear and sadness mix inside me as I drop into a heap on the floor. To be touched or held at … Continue reading Deep Breaths
Parenting 101
Being Strong, but Feeling Weak When our daughter was first born she always seemed to be in pain. We had watched the "Purple Screaming" video, but nothing prepares you for endless screaming. She had a lot of trouble sleeping and eating. There was a lot of sleepless nights, and we were stressed to the max. … Continue reading Parenting 101
Writing Everyday
My Journey Through Madness I learned an important lesson when I was younger and it still holds true today. Holding in your thoughts and emotions can have devastating repercussions. Especially when you hold onto negative emotions, such as shame and wrath. They tend to sludge up the works, and eventually can lead to creating an … Continue reading Writing Everyday
PTSD and Me
My Journey Through Life The biggest reason I started this blog was to use it as an outlet. A place where I can express my feelings and opinions. Where I can share my life experiences. I have spent a majority of my life talking without really saying anything. I've held on to my real feelings … Continue reading PTSD and Me
Why I Homeschool.
Why Homeschooling Works For Me I started homeschooling last year and it wasn't an easy choice. My wife and I had always planned on homeschooling. I was homeschooled and I loved it, but we just didn't think that we could afford for one of us not to work. I won't lie, it was a hard … Continue reading Why I Homeschool.
One Regular Dad 