I have had nightmares for the past 20+ years. I had a few years where I stopped having nightmares, but that was only because I worked overnights and developed insomnia. Only sleeping for 3 to 4 hrs. everyday. I didn't realize at the time how years of sleep deprivation were affecting my body. I was … Continue reading Ghosts of the Past
Tag: ptsd
The Pendulum
Back and forth. Pacing. No... Racing. Stuck, between moments. Trapped by circumstance. As limited as you are free. Set in motion perpetually.
An Instant – Haiku
The world goes sideways. Everything falls to pieces. Left with broken shards.
Abuse
Slap! The force knocks me back. Snap! Brittle bone start to crack. Pop! Joints feel on fire. Stop! Told I am a filthy liar.
Titanic
Our souls are set adrift the sea, searching for humanity. We build ourselves to be gigantic, Then we fail like the Titanic. To make sure we never fumble, We must make ourselves humble. To avoid all obsticles in our path, We must hold back our wrath. Keep true, and try not to clash. If you … Continue reading Titanic
How to Enjoy A Panic Attack
Step 1: Find a nice cozy corner to cry hysterically in. (Make sure to bring tissues.) Step 2: Avoid every other human being, like they are carriers of the plague. In fact, just do this in general. Step 3: Just let the 100's of varying emotions wash over you. Most people pay to go on … Continue reading How to Enjoy A Panic Attack
Problematic
I. Sit, Knowing. Hardly showing, The pain and guilt I feel. Is this world of mine even real? Panic struck. What the f... Now I try Then I cry The arrow, Points the way.
Early Morning Therapy
I have problems sleeping, so I usually wake up very early. I have nightmares every night and I tend to wake up with my heart beating out of my chest. Today was no exception. After I got up and centered myself, I remembered I had Therapy at 7am, so I quickly grabbed my coffee and … Continue reading Early Morning Therapy
How Do You Define Yourself?
One thing I struggled with when I was younger, was being myself. I used to pretend that I liked music, movies, games and hobbies just to fit in. This lead me to doing a lot of things I didn't want to do or enjoy at all. I would wait for other people to talk and … Continue reading How Do You Define Yourself?
Stairs
Spiraling out of control. I can’t grip on to reality. One misstep and I am done. Running is not an option. Can’t look back, Must go forward. Step... By step... By step... Will I fall or not.... Only time will tell.
One Regular Dad 