Positivity blinds me, It fuckin binds me. I strive, Not to thrive! To just survive. Tight rope walking, Fake shit talking. Welcome to my life, The age of strife. Bat shit crazy, With a hungry knife. I get paid I get laid, The chaos fades. But.. The demon might sleep, But my soul it will … Continue reading Fallen
Tag: depression
Craven
Slithering underneath, Where no one hears. Hiding behind, A mask of tears. Skin crawling, At the sight. Smile twisted, Wound too tight. A secret hid, In plain view, Stalking prey. Nothing to you... I don’t know how to be brave, When all I do is “Misbehave”.
Christmas Chaos
So, I haven’t been posting as much as I would like too, but that’s how the holidays go. It’s been chaotic here, but in a good way. Just scrambling around trying to get everything ready for Christmas. This is the first time in years that I am not working Christmas night, so I am pretty … Continue reading Christmas Chaos
Inherited Hate – 3 Haikus
Savage anger spews, Haphazardly covering. Innocent children. Inherited rage, An ancestral gift given, But never emptied. A circle of pain, Fueled by hate and fear. Forever? Snuffed out by our love.
Singularity
(Dedicated to my loving wife of almost 10 years) Will it happen, Once again. A moment etched, Forever in my mind. Still nights spent alone. Questioning. The reality of it all. It feels like yesterday — Everyday. 5 years blends with 10, But these thoughts never rot. Freshly sewed pain, From a barren field. Dried … Continue reading Singularity
Avoiding The Void
Flying high. Shot down fast. Trying to get by. Life was a blast. Tumbling sideways, Off a steep edge. Tough time, shit days. Gripping a crumbling ledge. Strength depleted, The void calls my name. Completely defeated. None left to blame. To fall is the choice, Between hope and despair. I still have my voice. And … Continue reading Avoiding The Void
Thanksgiving Thoughts
SO usually I am pretty stressed on Thanksgiving. Between traveling and dealing with groups of people, it's just not my thing. The whole holiday season can be vey overwhelming for me in general. This year I am focusing on the positive instead of the negative. I am not freaking out and worrying about things outside … Continue reading Thanksgiving Thoughts
Panic at the…
Slinking through the crowd. Voices jumbled, colors loud. Walls are compacting, now closing. Mannequins imposting. Staring and over beating. Fleeing through molasses. Twisting turning, there go my glasses. Stopping, thrown through a loop. Breathing erratic, trying to regroup. Boxed in, can’t breathe. Panic stricken, need to leave. Thoughts racing, Legs bracing. Tear stricken cheeks. Worst … Continue reading Panic at the…
Tera Firma
My Feet on the ground, Head in the sky; but earthbound. Imprisoned — but free.
Emotional Tie-Dye
Colors blend in a deafening roar, an emotional roller-coaster tour. Being pulled up, down, left and right. Full-blown emotional plight. Red rings harder then blue, causing me to cry then stew. A volcano of fear and desire, the culmination of water and fire. Steamed up in an empty pot. My heart feels like a vacant … Continue reading Emotional Tie-Dye
One Regular Dad 